American writer and author of Prozac Nation, Elizabeth Wurtzel, describes depression with great insight. She beautifully communicates to us that,
“A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it’s impossible to ever see the end.”
That hopelessness Wurtzel reveals to us is what I hear from every patient at the start of dTMS treatment. These individuals trapped in their depression believe that there is truly no end to their suffering, but there is.
My name is Brandyn Roach and I am the Lead TMS Technician and Research Coordinator for Achieve TMS Rancho Mirage. Over the past year and half, I have witnessed handfuls of people overcome depression and positively increase their quality of life! But for now, I would like to share with you the story of one patient in particular. From the outside this patient, we will call her “Jane”, didn’t immediately seem depressed. Jane had a solidified career, a home to take care of, a teenager to raise, a dog to walk, school to attend, which she did all of with great efficiency, but her depression weighed on her. She was a busy body, but was a high functioning depressed busy body. I remember in our first encounter, a free TMS consult, the word hopelessness was brought up over and over again. Jane didn’t see an end to her depression. She didn’t have a desire to wake up in the morning to deal with life. She just wanted to stay in bed all day and never wake up. Jane needed help, but more importantly wanted help! Fast forward two weeks of treatment and I was sitting in the room with a completely different person. Jane’s hope began to increase as her depression began to decrease! She woke up in the morning without questioning life. Work became enjoyable, the house was full of joy, her relationship with her teenager began to blossom, the dog was walked daily and school was hard, but not a hassle anymore. In a matter of two weeks I witnessed an angry, lonely and very depressed individual become a bubbly, vibrant and hopeful person! In Jane’s own words, “I can finally see in color now. Life isn’t black and white anymore.”. Jane finished all of her treatments and has clinically recovered from her depression.
Hope is evident, and at Achieve we provide a hope that allows people to rise above their depression and recover from it. Even the smallest amount of light will illuminate the darkest of rooms. All this to say, even though we may believe there is no hope, there always is!